Sand castle

The fright on Tonelero St was very useful. When we are dominated by anxiety, we can´t appreciate the little moments of daily life.

Seated on a bench on Ipanema Beach, I looked at the sea and the people who were getting tanned. A six year old boy was building a sand castle. The castle had lots of rooms and it was so elaborated that it even had a bridge that the boy made using a piece of popsicle stick. He was so proud of his work that he tried to call his mom countless times. Unfortunately his mom was too busy drinking a beer and smearing a suspect mixture to make her legs hair lighter.

He didn´t give up and looked to everybody so who knows, he could share his enthusiasm with someone else. Then, he saw me. He looked at me with attention, maybe to be sure that I was really looking at him. He smiled, as if saying: “I did it!” I smiled back and said to him: “I would love to live in this castle!”

Small things, great moments!!!

 

 

Tonelero St.

So hard to find a date to go!!! I feel butterflies in my stomach, my heart speeds up, my mouth gets dry.

There are so many things to do before I go! So many people to see, so many places to say goodbye to, so many bureaucracy to resolve!

I forget I can´t hug the world, but this is exactly what I want!!!

I want to hug the world! I want to be in all places! I want my day to have 42 hours! I want to eat, talk, kiss and dream, all at the same time!!!

Running between the cars on Tonelero St. I hear a stranger yell: “Calm down! Why such a hurry?” When I turn my back, a motorcycle runs the red light and makes me fall on the side walk.

I wasn´t injured, but thanks for the advice! It´s time to breathe and take it easy.

For my sake and the others´!

Parallel world

The decision of exploring the world moved me, my friends and my family a lot. The first question everyone asked: “Alone? Not knowing anyone?” I always answer: “But that´s the purpose!!!” rs

Imagine what the sensation would be like arriving in a totally different place. You don´t know anyone and no one knows you. The language is different, the habits are different, the weather, the food, everything!!! It must be like a parallel world.

Parallel or not, my head is full of ideas. I look at the map a million times and I start to realize how many places I have to meet. Impossible choice!!!

I wonder what it is going to be like when I look at this map in the future. It won´t be an enigma to me anymore. I will solve all its secrets, I will be part of it. A screw in the huge gear.

My brother called me lots of times today. He wanted to know if I have decided the date. I still don´t know!!! Soon...  Very soon...

The Decision

I´ve decided it was time to carry out my biggest dream: to travel around the world!!!
I can imagine that a lot of people want to do the same, but sometimes, life gives us answers through unexpected events. I´ve lost my father... For sure this was the most difficult event of my life. My relationship with him was with total affection and friendship. One of my pillars is ruined. I need to get some support to keep me standing.

Looking at my life, my stuff and the money I´ve got with this misfortune, I´ve decided to use it with something that would make me happy. I´ve decided to explore the world.
I don´t know where to or for how long. I just know that I carry the desire of living the impossible, of intensifying my senses, of provoking shivers, of living the life in all its plenitude!!!